Pointedstick wrote:
The thing that I ave such difficulty getting past is the the contradictions and logical failures.
For example, I am told that God is supposed to love us. Yet the penalty for not following his difficult-to-understand rules is literally eternal torture. What kind of love has the explicit threat of torturing you for the rest of eternity if you don't submit totally? And what kind of loving person forces you to follow rules that you have to seek out yourself and that are actually not very clear? This all sounds like abuse and barbarism, not love.
How could God love us if he consequence of God being omnipotent and omniscient is that He has orchestrated all the people going to Hell that He supposedly does not want to happen? If I set up a fish tank with a bunch of guppies, a piranha, and a safe area that the Piranha is too big to enter, should I be sad when the piranha eats the guppies that don't make it to the safe part in time? That was going to be the obvious result from the way I set up the system. Could I reasonably claim to love the guppies if I set up a system in which most of them were practically doomed from the start? If I did that, people would consider it a warning sign of sociopathy.
Now, I understand that the standard answer to these kinds of points is that God's motives and moral system are beyond our comprehension and logic is not the right tool to use to understand any of this.
But if we are not unable to comprehend God's motives, have can we be sure we are even correctly comprehending scripture? If God's moral system is incomprehensible, how can we be sure we're actually following it? Simply because we follow what scripture says? That runs right back into the first point. What if we're misunderstanding scripture? And if we cannot use logic to interpret either scripture or God's will, what tools do we have available to try to understand what we're supposed to do? It's not like this stuff is clear and obvious. Extremely intelligent and learned Christian theologians have been arguing and debating scripture since there was scripture. And there are hundreds of Christian denominations each with their own interpretation. With such wide disagreement, how is a layperson like me supposed to understand what I am supposed to do? How can I know who has it right?
Finally, I am told that all of this is exposed via "revelation." I am to understand that revelation more or less takes the form of me finally internalizing the truth after enough exposure to it in much the same manner as we internalize how to talk by being exposed to enough language and by practicing talking.
But something like 99.9% of humans who are exposed to language eventually learn to talk, while even among those who are exposed to religion, a non-trivial and constantly growing percentage fail to experience revelation, and instead, decide that it sounds like a bunch of mystical nonsense. That suggests to me that revelation is not very reliable. I certainly have never experienced it. I have even, on several occasions, actively gone searching for spiritual meaning, and I have never closed my mind off the the possibility of finding it. And there are times when I desire a greater spiritual element in my life. However, the more I am exposed to Christianity, the more repulsed by it I am. And I am not even sure that what I am exposed to here mostly via Mountaineer is even actual Christianity, as in many ways it totally contradicts what my Christian friends believe and what my Presbyterian minister father-in-law preaches to his congregation.
Can you understand how little appeal any of it has, given what I've written here? And if it's not about me, if it's about God finding me and opening my eyes to all of this... why hasn't it happened yet? What if I die before then? My going to Hell would be on Him for failing to show me the light in time, no?
Pointedstick,
I really, really, really wish we could discuss this in person, but I'll give another try here. I am going to keep this very simple ... it will not be complete and likely you could pick it apart if you try but is is probably "good enough", not perfect. I am trying to address your fundamental issue, not dot every I and cross every T that you are wondering about. More later if you wish. Have a great Thanksgiving and enjoy your family and friends.
1. All you have to DO is trust in God's promises that I've discussed before. The "bottom line" summary of Holy Scripture, that is what Christians believe, is summarized in the words of the Apostles Creed. You do not HAVE to DO any of those rules you so worry about - but, for believers, we WANT to do them as best we can while at the same time knowing we fall far short because we are human. Compliance with the rules is not FORCED upon you and will not be used to judge if you are saved as long as you believe the promises. Unbelievers will be judged by compliance to the rules and the slightest infraction results in eternal separation from "The Kingdom of God"; more bluntly stated, unbelievers will be cast into the outer darkness (various other descriptions are used) for eternity. The "what kind of loving God" would punish, etc., is similar to the loving parent who tells his children to do something that he knows is for the child’s own good, but the child disobeys because he thinks he knows more than the parent, and then the parent responds with a just punishment.
2. When you are baptized, you receive the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit works within you to strengthen your faith. You do not, however, have to be baptized to be saved. Baptism is one of the "means of grace" God uses to bring Himself to us.
3. Jesus also comes to us in The Lord's Supper, a second "means of grace”?. Frequent feeding Jesus to us via the bread and wine also strengthens our faith. Like baptism, you do not HAVE to receive the Lord’s Supper to be saved.
4. Jesus also comes to us when we hear the Word proclaimed, i.e. preached and taught faithfully. God's "revealed" Word is the Holy Scripture - the OT and the NT. It is NOT, dreams, "God told me", “I feel the Spirit”?, "I had a revelation while walking in the woods", etc.
5. Also, I suggest you stop thinking of Christianity as a moral system. I do not think that is the best explanation of what it is all about as it pushes one to a "works-righteous" or Old Testament LAW system rather than the "Jesus has done it all FOR YOU" system - GOSPEL. I'm not saying morals are not important, I'm saying you need to interpret the Old Testament via understanding the New Testament teachings - not vice versa or you end up mired in the LAW and the GOSPEL fades into the distance. I'm not at all surprised you think most of your religions friends and family focus on the LAW, most do. I do not think mixing LAW and GOSPEL instead of keeping them clear and understanding the role of each, is a salvation issue; it just has way more potential to drive people away from religion because all they see is conflict and confusion intead of clarity.
6. One of the biggest hurdles that I deal with is the concept of original sin; my human self wants to discount that and believe in the goodness of mankind, not the inherent, built in sinfullness of mankind. Unfortunately, that is just not reality. It has become obvious to me that Martin Luther had it right with his comment that we are simultaneously saint and sinner.
… Mountaineer
Put not your trust in princes, nor in the son of man, in whom there is no help. Psalm 146:3