Thank you for the practical advice and the healthy mind toolkit! It's exactly what I needed! Looks like I'll making a trip to my local GNC today... I'm in downtown Vancouver, so that works!Jack Jones wrote: ↑Fri Nov 12, 2021 11:40 amAw man, sorry to hear about that. Well, some if it sounds like a good time. I also smoke too much weed, I've overdone it on MDMA, and have indulged in the laughing gas. I've also been diagnosed w/ depression and used to do therapy and took medication for it. Both were effective long-term.Smith1776 wrote: ↑Fri Nov 12, 2021 4:01 amSince leaving however I've been in a low place. Like, suicidally low. I've been hospitalized twice, had police intervention called to my house twice, and have had god knows how many hours of therapy. Some coping mechanisms (some of which have been maladaptive) have included: way too much weed; MDMA; sleeping with randoms; clubbing for the first time in 8 years; acupuncture; brain stimulation; antidepressants; laughing gas; and probably a bunch of others i'm forgetting.
I had attempted suicide like 3 times and wrote like a half dozen suicide notes (and kept deleting them).
Here is my healthy mind kit. If I stray on these things, things tend to go downhill.
- sleep (consistency, go to bed when it's dark, don't fight your circadianness)
- meditation (exercise for the mind, sense of purpose, long term goal)
- 1/2 a multivitamin
- fish oil
- choline (on non-egg days)
- acetyl L carnitine (helps w/ weed side effects)
Since you're comfortable w/ mind altering drugs, consider psilocybin w/ a skilled practitioner. On the other side of the spectrum, CBD is an anti-psychotic and may help with the substance use issues.
Also, there's an important principle that I tend to forget, the Principle of Existential Validation:
In other words, observe what is working and what is not, and adjust accordingly. It's harder than it sounds because our existence is so habitual.Any idea, or system of values, or religious system, anything that impinges on individual existence, can validate itself or disqualify itself by its consequences for the health and fulfillment of the individual. . . If it is life enhancing, health promoting, increasing the capacity for love, wisdom, and beneficence of the individual, if it makes it possible for an individual to realize his inner potential, if it brings one into greater harmony with the Fundamental Order of Existence, it is valid.
If it has a disruptive, pathogenic effect, it is not valid. This principle of existential validation liberates us from sectarianism and cultural isolation. It makes it possible to know what to consider seriously and appreciate and what can be dismissed out of hand. . . .If this marvelous principle were more universally understood, there would be no more intolerance or prejudice, xenophobia, fear, religious hostilities, or political strife. It would be a unifying principle.
Finally, listen to some John Prine. It worked for me, Bill Murray, and Hunter S. Thompson.
I am indeed looking into shrooms/psilocybin as part of my emotional healing and plan for the spiritual alleviation of my pain. I remember feeling significantly better after taking LSD last year (this was during another breakup).