dualstow wrote: ↑Thu Mar 19, 2020 3:30 pm
Smith, you're the one of the last people I'd guess had depression, even in the past. I guess one never knows.
The truth is that I've had rather poor mental health for most of my adult life.
It started when I was 19 years old (now 31) when my college sweetheart broke up with me. From then on a kind of domino effect took over and a downward spiral ensued.
Your life kind of falls apart, but you're not really aware that it's your mental health that's the problem. After a while you sort of just assume you're a piece of s@$t and aren't capable of anything better. I never got into alcoholism or anything like that (thank goodness), but it was bad enough that I understand how these "diseases of despair" can grab a hold on people.
It turned around by my mid-twenties or so. You make small changes that allow for an upward rather a downward spiral. They become self-reinforcing. One day you eat a little less junk food. The next day you go for a walk. You decide to go back to school with 1 course -- then 2.
Life is much better now, but I don't regret the crap experience, as one only grows stronger through trying times.